Patrick STAR

2011-02-10T22:00:00.002+08:00

"Traditionally, parents made decisions for a child, because presumably they are looking out for his or her best interests. But if they are blinded, instead, by the best interests of another one of their children, the system breaks down." -My sister's keeper

632. one down

2011-01-21T20:45:00.002+08:00

the heart is a wonderful emotion treasure dam
it can keep a particular feeling stalled and locked up
it can keep a person from feeling worn -
for a moment, an hour, a day
but for how long?

i am dreading tml.

why must you give a kid a lolli and end up taking it away after?

2011-01-10T09:15:00.003+08:00

First post since the new year, so...

HAPPY 2011 EVERYONE!

This is the last leap of three years in the school, finally. I shall not stop running till I cross the finishing line. Graduation here I come..I hope.

Cannot wait for the month of Feb. It's gonna be a duper happy month :D

P.

641. two zero hana hana

2011-01-02T00:02:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

i cant believe its 2011 already!
time zooms by and i'm feeling old. the big 2-0 is looming ahead. "I DONT WANT!"
this year, i'm not gonna make resolutions cus there's absolutely no point in doing so.
hopefully, 2011 will be a good year.
hmm it will be. ha

time to start afresh!

HAPPY HOLIDAYS WORLD! :D

maybe i'll see her today

2010-12-22T22:57:00.002+08:00

xmas is creeping right around the corner.

'TIS THE SEASON TO BE JOLLY FALALA-LALA-LALALALA!~'
are you ready kids!?

639. uhm

2010-12-18T23:21:00.002+08:00

greetings, its been quite awhile. im here to give our little 'diary' some life!

so.

viet trip has been good, was a real eyeopener. i kinda realised that there's so so much out there for us to experience and knw. sometimes we think we knw things but it often proves us so so wrong. i've nvr felt so vulnerable and guarded at the same time. its a real lesson to learn.

and viet food is uniquely viet, you cant imagine how many times the diff kinds of unfamiliar looking raw veg we've eaten w meals. coffee there was nice, dense and good. the country is beautiful in its own way. (:

2010-12-11T08:47:00.001+08:00

Half of the sem's almost gone and soon in a few months time, we're all gonna be on fireworks; we're all gonna graduate. Hopefully. Can't wait!

P.

2010-11-13T16:01:00.004+08:00

i think the best job in the world is being a student. u know how survey forms always have occupation section, i used to hate ticking the student "box" cus it seems so juvenile. its like there's a connotation attached to it, not exactly a negative one but it's like 'oh so u're a student, u cant xxx', like there's always a limit, an extend that u can do sth w ur student 'status'. idk, prolly maybe its just because i wanna grow up too quickly badly then. then somehow stumbling into the working world u'll come to fully appreciate what have been.

ahh saturday afternoons are bad. they make ppl say things they didnt plan to say.

bye.

love + minimum fuss

2010-11-05T00:02:00.002+08:00

the other day i saw a bikebulance on the road, its basically a small lorry slapped w the big 'bikebulance' sign spelled out in reverse on the front, w wierd black rubbery wiring hung at the back. a bikebulance. that's the wierdest thing ever. a bikebulance provides conveying, annual inspection and scrapping services for motorcycles and bicycles, says google. ah, fascinating.

i need to sleep. kthxbye.

2010-10-30T22:18:00.001+08:00

"it's all in your system; clear your head."

antsy.

634. milestone

2010-10-19T17:33:00.002+08:00

graduation - its an indescribable feeling; an insurmountable joy, satisfaction and at the same time aspiration to be better. the valedictorian speech was simple yet brought motivation and so much hope and faith with it. i'm thankful and grateful, and want to leave all regrets and past behind. i am contented. going forth, i(we) will be empowered (:

2010-10-04T15:25:00.008+08:00

Wonder if that was really you or were you just trying to be someone you were not or that now you've changed.

As I was reading our previous texts, I suddenly realized why we could click better. There was this urge to party, there was no you asking me to stop swearing, there was more interest in and concern for me. Or maybe...there was more tolerance? I really have no idea why all of these stopped. Did you realize that my bad habits were intolerable or are you just that kind of someone who just leave when you lose interest.

As I continued reading the texts, I couldn't stop the tears. What a wuss huh. But it's 'cause I finally realized the answer to whether I'm just being superficial. It used to be so much easier when we were friends 'cause I wanted you lesser. And it would be much easier if it's all some stupid superficial game.

Remember when she told me you may have come my way, it was really too good to be true. But it's all too late now. Tried to bring us back to where we were, but it takes two hands to clap; what little memories we had only meant something to me. Or maybe you don't think we're any different from where we were.

This shall be the last post about you. I'm so tired of waiting for you to miss me instead. If you ever wondered if I really cared, I always did. But after the past few months, I'm almost done moving on now. It's really not worth spending time on someone who won't do the same. Goodbye.

P.

2010-09-24T19:35:00.002+08:00

this week had gone by really sowly, like an elephant trudging thru the amazon.
it wld be great if man can come up w a time machine, speeding up/ slowing time down according to his preference. that wld be pure bliss!

on a totally random note:
i had a revelation today; i used to really hate the design of our "new" version of sport pe attire, the ugly blue panels on the sides of the collared tee with matching skort. i cldnt put a finger as to why i dislike it so much but today i found out why. it looks like a fricking beer lady's uniform. not to say that all beer ladies dressed like that. but really, it brings me much discomfort when i see someone wearing it.

but its alright, its not like im gonna ever wear it/wore it.

the nxt time i pass by sch, i'll prolly see throngs of 'beer ladies' attending flag raising. that'll def come to mind.

2010-09-21T23:13:00.001+08:00

You have no right to say that people don't love you enough when you're the one pushing them away.

Fucking wake up. 'cause I'm here and I would - if you'd let me.

P.

2010-09-21T11:38:00.001+08:00

"Good morning:)"
"Sorry?"
"Good. Morning"
"Oh."

Haha. Grandma just left for Jakarta. She's really putting her holidays to good use.

Anw, hope I would survive this wed and thurs if I'm staying out the night. *crosses fingers* D:

P.

2010-09-15T13:54:00.003+08:00

If you really touched her intentionally, I.will.fucking.break.your.bones.

Even if it means breaking my own.

Good day.

P.

ten

2010-09-10T18:53:00.003+08:00

shoes, i will tear you down before you bite the back of my ankles and leave my blistering foot in the lurch.

ahh, its nice to have public holidays fall on the weekdays. makes the weekends seem a little longer.

selamat hari raya!

crash & burn

2010-09-08T09:55:00.002+08:00

"do you here that sound?"
"uh-huh, that's the sound of rain coming"

glee.

i feel like painting; shld have skipped class and gone painting w mob ystd :/

p.s. hope ppl in christchurch are alright; lord help them.

27drops

2010-09-03T22:43:00.004+08:00

hello there, rotting my ass away at someone's house party so im gonna do a quick one here. someone said i rant, whine and say a lot of random things on the blog; that its not "personal enough". how personal do you want it to be right? but that's besides the point. point is, i think he's kindof right. so here i am, gg to let you in on my 'self-taught' hypnotising routine; the best way to get you thru the week in a jiffy.

rule no.1: believe that every thing that comes out of ur mouth is the only truth

repeat it like this...

weekends= weekends!
mon = weekends 2.0
tue = start of the week; start slow..
wed = work
thurs = 'today is friday'
fri = TGIF!

it makes my work life a lot easier each week. so technically im just working 1 day a week! glee. go on, delude yourself

because i cant quit my job - i've got 10mouths, 15fishes, 6dogs, 5ponies, 3 hamsters and 2 turtles to feed.

this is getting "personal".

2010-09-03T20:48:00.003+08:00

Empty. Where there's not even nothing.

Just, empty.

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2010-08-30T22:46:00.002+08:00

you are just so.selfish.

she fuckin' hates me and I love it

2010-08-26T22:21:00.002+08:00

How do you talk to someone when the conversation always ends up in some kind of dispute due to some miscommunication..?

You can't.

And I'm dead glad that we can't. Or I'll still be into you. Maybe I need to thank you for making it easier and putting me out of my misery.

Still on the designing of sign board for the org. So tough and I'm out of ideas. Even ideas cant help because my skills are limited.

P.

2010-08-26T11:20:00.001+08:00

it's raining, it's pouring
the old man is snoring
he went to bed and bumped his head
and couldnt get up in the morning.

How could an angel break my heart

2010-08-26T01:45:00.001+08:00

Just heard Big Girls Don't Cry by Fergie on the radio..brings back good memories:)

Finally stopped working! It's really quite difficult to willingly stop doing work and I really hate it 'cause it's so tiring.Furthermore, it's supposed to be the holidays now.

I.need.to.relax. Bye.

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2010-08-20T10:39:00.002+08:00

head throbbing, feeling drowsy and fever's running

i just wanna go home

but no, i have to finish all my work first.

happy friday everyone

ma baey ji dong

2010-08-06T23:18:00.002+08:00

havent smile till my mouth hurts and laugh till my tummy aches for awhile.
they never fail to make my day.
and i cherish every single one of them.
clique <3

happy beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeelated bday ah mui!

office morons

2010-08-04T23:05:00.004+08:00

there is a specific type of people in the office that pisses the shit out me. they are the kinds that order you around just because they are your "seniors", just because you walked pass them to get a file from a cabinet and are in their line of vision, just because they "feel like ordering you around today", just because they are JACKASS PRICKS THAT HAVE NO LIFE AND ASKS YOU TO PUT AN INVOICE BACK INTO A FILE BECAUSE THEY "CANT FIND IT" AND ARE "BUSY", WHERE THE FILE IS JUST RIGHT IN FRONT OF THEM, AND GOSSIP WITH THE OTHER PRICK NEXT TO THEM.

omfg

pink glasses&champagne

2010-08-02T22:35:00.003+08:00

last week past by in a blur; a good kind of blur.
the usual endless workload has lightened
and most importantly, im still occupied - hate having nothing to do.
hustle-bustle, hustle bustling

and i "renewed" my employment and my "dedication" (add in snickerxzx) to my job, my boss and its people (sounds national day- esque eh?)

so.
im re-employed, and i have a job.
this calls for a celebration, no?

im contented at the moment.
and i also have you (:

i'll wait for you on the other side

2010-07-29T22:15:00.001+08:00

i think i'll grow up to become one of those parent-hating-i-blame-you-for-xxx kind of person.

ugh.

2010-07-22T09:34:00.001+08:00

Gonna meet Meena after so long!

And I'm having some crisis shit again, but feel that I still need to have fun D: This is bad...

Alright, gotta go.

P.

2010-07-11T18:48:00.002+08:00

Hi dork I read your post. Haha yes we should have a celebratory dinner. I'll tell you once I get my pay. Pathetic right. Anw, we should stick to this blog forever or something. Maybe just change the layout and...url. We're screwing tumblr, stick to blogger :)

Ah. One more week of internship. 5 more days to be exact. How do I feel....there're mixed feelings I guess. I think I rather volunteer than to work? and I am really not looking forward to going back to school. Just the thought of sitting in a classroom and listening to boring lectures/tutorials turns me off immediately. Well well, looks like I don't want any commitments or obligations, just things that I want to do. But who doesn't.

hahaha Christmas carols playing now. *next*

Hm, I'm still sitting on the floor to do work after yesterday.

Yes it's you. But no, it doesn't matter anymore. Because I don't matter to you.

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standalone

2010-07-07T20:11:00.005+08:00

i kinda forgotten abt this space. was doing some housekeeping on the comp and then rmbed it. i actually really like this little 'personal' space/blog. and like chye mentioned, its been what, 4/5 yrs we had this for. must have a celebratory dinner mob! hahaha

oh how time flies.

work. work has been taking up a lot of time. i barely have time for other things anm. and the only interesting thing that happened in the past wks is that i mastered the art of using the big-ass office stapler. u say big deal right, its just a stapler. no its not, it gigantic and pisses the shit of me. i had to pick out all the wrong/unsatisfactory/crooked stapling a million times before i get it right. many times the cover page ends up w a million unsightly stapling holes. one look and my seniors can tell which ones are done by me. ha.

stapling is an art i swear.
but then again, perhaps its just me. i dont have stapling talents. yeah

bye

2010-06-27T17:24:00.004+08:00

CONGRATULATIONS TO BARACUDA BATUCADA AND DRUNKEN FLOWERS FOR REIGNING DRUMZOUT 2010 CHAMPIONS!

Almost teared right after BB's performance. No, it is stupid to think that I am jealous. But really fucking touched that the performance was awesome. Somehow feel that our dream is being fulfilled, though not by ourselves. Didn't even have to know if they won because the show was good enough :) YAY.

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2010-06-21T00:53:00.003+08:00

Just spent quite long searching, opening windows and windows, begging people for a freakin old song which I thought was the one I wanted. But no...NOOOO it wasnt the one. Go and die.

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2010-06-18T09:23:00.001+08:00

AWESOME, IT RAINED!

2010-06-18T09:18:00.001+08:00

morning world!
hahahah i think its gonna rain today.
venice *clap clap clap* venice *clap clap clap*

bye

607. urge

2010-06-16T21:52:00.002+08:00

today, as u all know, town was flooding. i knw i shldnt be saying this, but i think the sight is mad awesome. at our office building, the floodwaters lvl was right at the stairs landing that leads up to the lift lobby. the first thought that came to my mind was venice. its like u cld just take a kayak and row off somewhere. hahahaha. its really pretty cool. too bad they pumped off all the water by lunchtime, so no macs delivery or slacking off work pretending to be worried bout the flood or any kayaking involved. ha.

hitman

2010-06-09T22:22:00.002+08:00

random thought one:
i think pigeon, like humans, have different body types. you see, today i saw a couple of pigeons with plum bodies but slender neck. from the back, they look like they have really big butts. also saw a few others plum all over. then there are the normal generic looking ones. so the first must be pear-shaped, second prolly an hourglass? (or maybe just plain obese). the third's prolly the "tube"; no curves, slender bodies.
point is, i think animals have diff body types, just like we do.

zz. moving on.

work: i think field audit's the best. hours are flexible, you cab everywhere, meals provided, pleasant dispositions and almost superior treatment from the staff. best of all, you get paid the same as when u're back in the office. minus travel fatigue, it's pretty awesome. beat office politics, work piling,and stink foodcourt anyday. any day.

bye.

2010-06-06T02:51:00.002+08:00

So dead tired. Gonna continue pia-ing report tomorrow.

Very hungry! Good mornite.

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604. ding-dong

2010-06-02T18:28:00.002+08:00

close your eyes
so they dont betray your thoughts.

before i fall flat on my face and die of exhaustion, i'd say:
i'm f-ing sick and tired of eating at the same foodcourt, seat at the same place, eat the same food, with the same ppl every bloody single day. the smell, the food, the aftertaste, the environment is just disgusting. and most importantly, i cant do anythng abt it.

so.

ugly.

2010-05-22T23:08:00.002+08:00

dear diary,
i stepped into the working world on monday. felt like a deer in the headlights. realised i dont knw anythng at all; and wished for the hundredth time i paid more attention/attended lectures during sch. this wk, i have done quite a number of things for the first time and its pretty awesome. i feel like a sponge, learning and absorbing lots of things. -cue spongebob laughter-. haha. its great. and i hope my enthusiasm will last. cross my fingers, toes and balls.

ta.

2010-05-16T21:41:00.001+08:00

I'm scared...but if I can really survive next week with 10 bucks,I'll be superwoman.Time for a plan Petrina Goh!

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2010-05-08T23:42:00.001+08:00

The more people I'm with,the worst I feel.To hell with it.

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600. stole my thunder

2010-05-08T14:47:00.002+08:00

aloha friends, weather's been an asshole lately. everytime there's a scorching sun, the word "global warming" pops up in my mind, as if someone's chanting it nonstop. soab. but point is, its prolly gg to rain all wk this coming wk (YAY!), and cross my fingers and toes it does. please lord.

anyhows went for a short roadtrip; starting work really soon. im not even sure what position im gg to be assigned to, but any position's fine really, as long as i learn sth (:

daddy and i talked abt plans and things for the future, and i realised he has a lot of hopes and things mapped out for me. it scares me to think i have to live up to his expectations, but at the same time, im excited and i hope to discover what i truly love doing along the way.

hk in aug, seoul in dec, paris in jan, and hamilton for a yr or 2. that's a long road ahead.

ta!

2010-04-27T00:48:00.002+08:00

Home visit today was a disappointment. Not all bad, but still bad. Plus there's a freaking huge workload. So lazy to upload the time-line here. Time-line's packed all the way till end of intern, July. GG. Feel like sucha workaholic to sort of forsake friendships and other commitments when I stop making the effort to keep in touch and all. Not that they are not important, but the busyness, laziness and exhaustion at the end of the day...gah. Really hope when I make the effort again, it'll be the same. Sounds a lil selfish I know, but it's really quite difficult to pay attention to others when you don't give yourself enough attention alrdy. Or maybe I should not hope for the same and just make more effort? I really don't know.

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2010-04-15T22:50:00.002+08:00

HAHAHHAHA
read the blog just (which i usually dont), totally made my day. err i mean, night.
hohohoho. thanks mob!

<3

p.s one more paperrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

2010-04-14T21:11:00.001+08:00

From: Pit
To: Dork

Okay I shall consume you :D and sell you to bangala.

stranger

2010-04-13T00:05:00.003+08:00

thought i saw you just, a distant silent silhouette
a surge of emotions followed by sheer emptiness
like falling down into a never-ending pit

oh pit, why dont you just consume me?

2010-04-12T08:03:00.001+08:00

Morning.It's weird how I got this sudden realization when I just woke up.I think I'm like you now.Not necessarily you made me,but you could have made what it was worst.

Was wondering if this crappy feeling is sad or scared.Think I know.And this is f* nonsense.

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594. turn it in

2010-04-11T17:34:00.003+08:00

aloha world, this week has been exhausting and it'll continue so till the next.
start of finals tml. haha oxymoron. still rmb mrs das teaching us that word during morn assembly, "oxymoron, know what it means? dont know? check ur dictionaries..." hahah sweet.
anyhows wish me luck ppl, i need all the luck in the world.

alright, till then.
bye.

2010-04-09T23:00:00.002+08:00

Work's been okay. But so busy. After work, home then continue doing work. It's like OT. Just that you don't get paid, and it's at home. Seems like there's no break. There'll be work in work every week, or even every few days. It piles up because the in-s are faster and more than the out-s. Also, school work plus work work's...wth. Well at least there're children and youths to play with at the drop-ins :) Funsome. But will only be going there twice weekly from next week onwards. Hm, I wanna see my marshmallow boy!

The noodle I took just now had lousy chilly, cause it's burning my throat now and making it damn dry. Hellooo.

Btw, I was so stupid on Tuesday. Thank God nothing happened. Made me think twice about trusting myself now. It'll screw my life up soon if I don't stop.

Finally, I can sleep in tomorrow. Just for tmr.

Goodnight!

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icescream and rainydays

2010-04-01T13:39:00.002+08:00

Ahhhhhhh! i'm so happy its raining and gloomy these days. love it when its cooling! weather's been kind.
so life has been pretty much the same, cept i stay home more and do less sleepovers. just need to lay low for 3 weeks and i'll be free! yips! hang in thereeeee.

icescream + movies + rainy days = love

ta!

if looks can kill, you would have died a thousand times over

2010-03-25T16:34:00.002+08:00

i hate people who are selfish
and i hate people who hurt people in the process of fulfilling their goals
selfish.

it prolly runs in the genes.

2010-03-21T18:43:00.002+08:00

"the worst thing in life is to be desperate, like you need other people and you are dependent on them. if you feel like you are independent, you can walk away from sth bad and that is a powerful position to be in." - robert greene

what an awesome reminder.

anws leg sore from standing the whole day.need salon pas like an ahma again.
hmm cant wait for dinner!

xoxo

never again

2010-03-17T16:22:00.002+08:00

there's no turning back now
just do what u're doing
look ahead
press forward
dont turn, dont.

i wish, wish i had 9 lifetimes.

2010-03-16T23:34:00.001+08:00

O.A.R- Shattered(Turn the car around)

Do you know you make me so - I have to lose myself just to forget you for a few minutes/hours.Nope you don't.

Btw, this app for blogging looks damn dull.Please release another with more interesting features for blogger!Tyvn.I'll be missing everything as well as ladies' night at butter tmr.Gotta visit AWWA FSC on the next morning.Gotta be responsible.Oh still can't decide if I should get the blue vans I saw.

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three strikes u're out!

2010-03-15T11:47:00.002+08:00

morning world.
ystd was a blast?
had isa's 21st.
my head's throbbing w pain.
cant rmb what happened,
dont wanna get out of bed.
roar.

need to see the dean. fml.

586. you can always take them off

2010-03-12T12:31:00.002+08:00

school - is not as bad as it seemed
i'm starting to enjoy the company even more.
2 more lessons to go!
1 mid-trimester test tml!

ta.

2010-03-09T11:06:00.001+08:00

gosh, interview's in a few hours time. So nervous don't feel like doing anymore preparation. Really want FSC, must do well!

P.

2010-03-08T21:43:00.002+08:00

i never had so much gg on in my life, at one go.
feel like my veins will all surface on my skin and my face will shatter into pieces.
just wanna breath
it'll be over soon
over soon

creeper

2010-03-07T21:16:00.003+08:00

hoho, today i realised i am aging, at the speed of light. here's why:
1. today i brought like 5 million things to sch, and my back is aching like a bitch. need salonpas.
2. i spotted a semi silver-golden strand of hair in my head, second time. horror!
3. i get pissed easily. old ppl get pissed easily.
4. i cant rmb things. tell me and i forget the next instance. - early-onset dementia
5. my eyes are bad, have to squint to see like gramma!

kay five reasons. five is a lot.
have a great weekend (:

p.s shoutout to yo, miss you a million!

even the best fall down sometimes

2010-03-06T19:08:00.005+08:00

I should stop trying. Sometimes trying just makes it worst. I just want the attention you used to give me though it meant nothing special. But currently, how can we even remain friends when we don't talk. Some friendships work like that but we don't know each other for that long know what I mean.

Ah, anw AWWA still hasn't contacted us on the interview date but most prolly should be on the 9th.Hope I'm prepared. Wish me luck.

The - from yesterday left a stale taste in my mouth.

Hm in the mood for some horror movie....or Alice in Wonderland. Dork when!

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0303. full moon

2010-03-04T00:16:00.002+08:00

hello world.
i have unofficially decided to become a 'yes' man for now. sch's been really busy, lectures are picking up, lessons are hell crazy, like 2-tests-every-lesson crazy. so crazy tests + mad scientist teacher = hell hole.
but its good, makes us study harder. and i have no reason not to; only those who sows hard reaps well right? i havent been sowing, much. so. so yes to projects, yes to mugging, yes to lectures AND tutorials, yes to sleepless nights, yes to saggy asses and droopy eyebags. yes man!

and i will find joy in all of that.

great, off to supper.
xoxo

p.s ystd was full moon. i saw it from a bridge, it was awesome.

2010-03-03T15:18:00.002+08:00

I'm not sure if the feeling's gone or whether like I said, to give up until I understood, and I really gave up. Know either it's these because I'm facing it head on and I feel...nothing. (Y)

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2010-02-28T22:08:00.002+08:00

Isit wrong to play hard when I've studied so hard. Why does everyone nag more when I go out and not really say anything when I'm evidently mugging. Everyone who's this unfair should try what we (students) go through.

P.

2010-02-26T11:26:00.000+08:00

He didn't know how lucky he was. Whoever that is.

P.

2010-02-24T10:47:00.004+08:00

Apparently, I can't sleep this off. Music doesn't work either. Nothing works. Curious though, music always works till now. So much for trying not to be affected.

The thing is, I learnt about some things few days ago and..yesterday. Well, more or less the truth. Maybe it's unfair cause it I didn't hear it directly from you. But it doesn't matter right, everything I'm feeling now is what it is solely because of me, and you're almost totally ignorant about it, so there's nothing you can possibly say. Even posting this makes me feel like I'm talking to myself, so silly. Worst, I have to pretend I feel nothing. Know I said to give up quite some time ago, but honestly somehow I'm still harboring any little bit of hope I can get. Fuck, why am I so full of emotions.Though it has only been a very short while, when I knew everything was nothing at all,nothing seems to matter anymore. So stupid again.

I seem to have so many hearts to give. It's like I can't survive without falling for someone. Or is this a sign of the incapability to truly love someone. Okay I give up, till I understand.

Finally, thoughts/feelings I had for the past half a year is everything in the last para. Now that everything's out. Time to focus on brain b. and fuck this shit.

HI JEDI. This is so sad right hahaha.

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5hundred&7tyfive

2010-02-18T19:03:00.002+08:00

someone asked why i have so many dresses and i thought long and hard. today i found an answer. because they're effortless, you dont have to think whether ur top matches ur bottoms. to put it simply, its just easy. on days u have so much gg on, wake up late for sch, just pick one to go. and viola!

haha okay totally random, but yeah, the ans just struck me.
the weekend holidays and extended "term break" has left me feeling tired and happy.
i get to spend time with family, and also more time for schwork.
which is good. now focus.
push on!

that girl is a monster. Mo-mo-mo-monsterr

2010-02-13T22:14:00.003+08:00

Just had reunion dinner. Tomyum steamboat. Seriously think that prawns shouldn't be added in any steamboat, spoils the taste of the soup cause it's so fishy. Hate seafood. And I'm so sleepy after eating. Dad says maybe we'll go to 7-11 later to get drinks and sit at the kpt. If that happens later, it'll be a second I-feel-like-an-ah lian day. First was yesterday when someone shouted fuck you across the road to me, and when we sat at the void deck to drink-.- hahahaha wth. Okay, HAPPY CHEENA NEW YEAR PEOPLE. Not so happy for those whose exams are shortly after. Schools are stupid really. Oh and HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY too :) I'm so dead if this thing goes out of hand.

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tweeet

2010-02-11T23:29:00.002+08:00

1st. had personalised lao yu sheng today with girlfriends. superduperdy awesome!

2nd. and dad is mad cute. he got highway code books for me cus he "walked past and saw". aww dads ((:

3rd. meeting crackface tml!

nighty.
p.s 2 posts in a day. yay.

today was a fairytale

2010-02-11T10:37:00.007+08:00

- my current song of the week (:

aloha friends.
the past week or so have been crazy busy. who isnt right?
work's piled up to the neck alr, i think we all dont have time to breath.
but life's good; doing busy endless things that keeps ur mind off other things.
i likey. ha

speaking of which, mom has still yet to go down to cheenatown to buy her cny stuff. procrastinate, dragdragdrag, omg just like me. forever and ever, amen.

k, gotta get my butt of the chair. its getting fatter and bigger and soggier. just like a biscuit cracker dung in black coffee. eww. hahaha

ta!

don't believe in many things but you, I do.

2010-02-08T00:28:00.004+08:00

haha thanks dork neo:DD

Tomorrow shall be the mark of the end of assignments and projects..and the start of tests and exams. Just handed up a 40 page report on friday. Was late to submit resume on thursday and I'm in trouble. I seriously don't know why I'm always late. Okay maybe I know. But..really is that it?

Hm I'm craving for ice cream now. Baileys from Haato. Anw, I finally have a resolution, stop drinking so much and work out. Maybe working out is a better alternative to keeping myself busy and keep my mind off things. At least it wont damage my brain or anything. Alcohol affects your muscles, vision, thoughts and behavior. Every time I drink my face feels cramped, like there's a need to smile and/or laugh at everything, works just like laughing gas I guess. Body muscles start to feel like they're wearing out and maybe lethargy sets in. But at the same time, there's still the emptiness. Makes you crazy on the outside, but doesn't change what you're feeling on the inside after you're immune to the effects. Not like I'm totally cutting off from it, but much much less. Waste of money too.

Wanted to say I want to buy Nixon's Nomadic headphone, then I just read the review, not much bass and will not satisfy audio purists. Want bass. Hmm. Shall put on hold, and hopefully the "feel" will fade and I can save money.

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569. happy birthday

2010-02-03T15:18:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY PARTNER!

may our blog last till forever. yay.
love ya!

2010-01-28T08:57:00.003+08:00

Haven't been posting for quite some time. But now I'm early so I have a little time! So difficult to find a place for counseling, but finally. Alright, think I never fail to piss people off. Especially those who mean a lot to me. Am so good at spoiling it for myself. The closer I get, the worst the friend/relationships become. Not sure why. Don says I should give up hahaha. But soooo difficult also. Swear everything is difficult, I'll tell you what is, Bahasa Indo is difficult, Counseling is difficult, this is difficult, being punctual is difficult, not being sleepy is difficult, having no time is a pain in the ass, and the list goes on.

Okk, can't wait to film counseling. Super behind time, but client's still not here. Holy shit there're so many things happening this week. There's internship partner meeting tmr, picnic on sat, RML on sunday. And next week's fucked up with resume and podcast on thursday, and counseling on friday.

Craving for cereal m/s with loads of cereal.

P.hish pood

567. lottery

2010-01-19T22:55:00.003+08:00

aloha friend.
i realised this place's been empty much.
havent been blogging for a while, and tho there's nothing really interesting in life, i shall do it for the sake of doing it.

so here goes:
jan is coming to an end. i still have yet to come up w my 10 resolutions (yeah i made a pact to come up w 10). oh i had one! that clean the clutter in my room. success! checked. (((: kay 9 more to go.

sch has been just like sch. its the same cycle everyday. i need to break the habit of oversleeping and rushing to sch. sheer madness, mild exhilaration. its a refreshing change actually (:

and work,ha. my almost non-existant job to cover my ever debt-chalking habit.

k that's all for now.
have fun whereever you areeeeeee.

love.

lady in red

2010-01-10T12:34:00.003+08:00

I'm doing a good job I think. So absorbed into my own thoughts but at least I haven't succumb to talking to you yet. muahaha.

Supposed to go to the Mind Cafe for social activity later but seems like there may be a problem. No back up plan and it's in an hour. Shingz.

My throat's been spoilt for bout a week or more already. It's never gonna get better at this rate when I'm eating anything and everything. Oh well who cares as long as people can make out what I'm trying to say tomorrow.

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empowering

2010-01-09T10:22:00.004+08:00

This is effed up. I'm feeling stressed by school, and to make things worst, my dependence on you. It's like my day doesn't start until I've talked to you. I need to gain my independence back. I know I can and used to be in control of my own mood. Why let myself fall so deep when it's for sure you won't be there. No reason for you to be. Feeling the withdrawal symptoms already, so fast.

Sometimes I fall into another so fast I disgust myself. Maybe am really incapable of loving.

Cannot emphasize more how it's all the same.So tired and yet..

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2010-01-08T19:52:00.004+08:00

So effing busy. I skipped the whole of open house today. Feel damn bad, but there is seriously no time even for sleep. Especially when we have to redo grpmgt. Maybe there'll be a need to skip tomorrow too. Sorry guys, if yall read this.

Hmm, you're really leaving. I don't know why I'm bothered but I just am. So hard for me to say I'm sorry. Or maybe I shouldn't.

Chye's birthday tmr!

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563. yingyang

2010-01-08T08:18:00.002+08:00

didnt sleep a wink last night. must be the yingyang i had.
im dead tired; but the brain's running on the treadmill, energy abundant.

B called for a morning jog, gonna go accompany him
morning crawl here i come
weee.

bye

sinksunksonk

2010-01-07T21:59:00.002+08:00

aloha.
have been checking to see if results have been released for the past few days, like a maniac pysochpath. and finally, it has! very disappointing, but expected. u can see like a downward trend from term1 till now. haha. kay whatever.

so now, resolution one is to study. yes study not browse.

alrighty, babysitting tml. sucha chore.grr.

ta.

561. blind ambition

2010-01-02T14:58:00.002+08:00

i just got back.
down w flu too.

hope everyone had an awesome new year!!

new years had been a blast, the company was the most awesome (:

it might be a little too late but still 2009 has been a very very eventful year,
and i just wanna say my thanks to -
my family (tho they prolly wont read this)
clique
clique 2
clique 3
etc.

you know who you are <3
and special thanks to grandpa, thank you for everything. you'll always be remembered.

anyhows 2010 now, i have yet to do up my resolutions.
there's so much going on. and mom's starting spring cleaning alr.
i need to clear the massive clutter in my room (ah, resolution no.1!)

jan is going to be my last semester at murdoch, and i cant wait to graduate!

kay this is like my longest post ever.
my thoughts are all over the place.
i'll do another one once i settle down.

ta!

2010-01-01T11:34:00.002+08:00

When you leave for good, it'll really be over.

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2009-12-25T12:34:00.003+08:00

AND oh look, it's x'mas already.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

hope everyone will be doing something today, with friends or family doesn't matter as long you're happy, well at least for today:)

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Automatic

2009-12-24T21:25:00.005+08:00

Merry Christmas Eve people! :)

Since it's supposed to be a joyful occasion, I shan't post anything unhappy till after Christmas hahaha.

dork I'm here! We should meet when everyone's back in sgp.

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hello beautiful

2009-12-19T09:37:00.003+08:00

im gonna go on a road trippy tonight.
wont be back till aft xmas, so Happy Merry Early Christmas EVERYONE!
regardless whether u're celebrating or not, i think its a happy occassion.
a time to give, receive and love (:

so happy holidays!

p.s mob where are you? ha

ta.

highhorse

2009-12-12T17:58:00.001+08:00

it would be a miracle.

2009-12-11T22:19:00.002+08:00

cross my fingers, eyes, mouth, nose, head, shoulders, knees and toes.

i need so much luck right now.
oh my lord.

2009-12-11T16:19:00.001+08:00

What did I get myself into? Nope I don't want to be just friends. Fuck.

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553. check ur temper at the door

2009-12-10T18:04:00.000+08:00

xmassy plans are cancelled because of some things and im feeling very irked and slightly pissed off. dad's trying to make last minute holiday plans but i doubt there'll be any. its doesnt really matter now i guess. xmas in singapore can be fun (with everyone gone overseas yeah). hell yeah.

finals in 2 day, fighting!

2009-12-07T12:25:00.002+08:00

I know I said I would continue updating on the trip, but seems like I'm too lazy to do so. Busy also. There's Legal F presentation and test this week. Brain B and Group D essays due next week. Alleluieaaaa.

I feel like sucha fool recently. So dependent on the power of "love" to drive me. This is bad. It's like I can't function properly or happily without ___. So fucking loser right. Okay.

Bye. School's soon. How to study law?!

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Swore I saw forever in your eyes.

2009-12-05T10:45:00.022+08:00

HELLO PEEPEES! I'm gonna blog bout Cambodia trip with whatever little pictures I have. My camera's memory card is simply too lousy. Yay thank god for the blog I don't have to keep repeating my experiences. Oh and sorry for the blur and lousy photos taken and arranged. Lazy.

30/11/09:
Flight got delayed for 2 hours. So we walked around looking for cheers/7-11. but to no avail! Approached this guard, he said got mama shop near some cafe, but we couldn't find it..Thus decided to just head to Cocoa tree. Bought jelly beans and assorted chocolates which we didn't finish till the last day. Not that we had a lot, but seriously didn't have any appetite at all there. Yup. Then we missed out on the free lunch at the airport due to the time we spent walking around. So we rushed to buy onion rings! and some drinks then headed to the gate. Gate 33? So eggciting to queue and go in. hahaha. And someone screamed when the plane was taking off I won't say who.hahaha wth! Arrived at Phnom Pehn airport, took a 3 hour bus ride to the village. We stopped at the village's Solar Cafe for supper..noodles with chinese tea. I don't have the photos of these sadly. Finally, arrived at the Khmer village homestay a few metres away from the cafe, at around 1am? Then we got the news that some "chalets" were occupied, so some of us had to shift to chalet 11. It became crowded with about 20 peeps, with 3 toilets. Luckily there was a little electricity, though lights off at quite early. But they were nice to extend the timing for us since the flight got delayed. Okay then there was the water...it was...rusty and brown and metal smelling. Weiling said the water was sour, but she didn't make a big fuss out of it. K so I thought it wasn't very bad. But when I switched on the tap to let the water run through the tap first, brown stuff started squirting out, dark brown mind you. Wasn't prepared at all. Yea so I just rinsed my mouth with Listerine for the first night. Okay then we noticed a lot of insects around, kinda bigger than SGP ones. Omg and it was fun hearing people screaming and squealing there though I was also part of it luh. hahaha. What losers. Oh right, and there was a large mirror on the floor of the room. Freaky TTM at night! Hm hmm, there's only one window in the room. And...that's our bed(below) with the mosquito netting. Haha I won't forget what happened that night; Mad came out of the toilet sulking. She asked for us to smell her hair. And woah it was like metal. She was still sulking. Laughed so hard at her..but I forgot we all had to use that water to shower for the days to come! sheesh.

1/12/09:
Didn't really sleep like the rest did. Couldn't. New environment. Roosters can be heard at like 3+ alrdy I think. Showered and blah, then reported for the bus. Headed to Solar Cafe again. Had b'fast, which was porridge, salty egg, veggies, fish and milo. People of Disabilities from the surrounding villages started to arrive at the cafe.There was a short introduction, and everyone got to work. Some people led groups of villagers, others were packing donations I think, then the group I was in was in charge of the games. Took a few minutes to come up with some games, think we totally didn't use any of the games we discussed. One of the stations was getting the people to stand behind the line and throw mini balls into chinese looking red bowls as shown below. hahaha it was fun! I didn't photograph other stations though thanks to the memory card again. Shitt. A lot of us were tired after that, but the day was not done. After games was lunch, then slack time. Slack time wasn't exactly slack though, we took the time to play with the kids, interact, cam-whore with cows, lunch and whatever else we could do. I swear the cows look like dogs (cover the ears). Oh and there's this little girl who's damnnnnn cute! :D I like her. She digged her nose when Weiling wanted to high-5 hahaha oh man. Yup. At the end, each group had to come up with a short performance. Also, we gave out donations and all. So nice to see most of them smiling. Some of them even raise their hands when they didn't have a bundle of clothes. Some children were also fighting to exchange toys because one of them didn't like the Woodstock from snoopy hahaha. So we stayed at the cafe till 5+ and headed for PONY RIDE, HELL YESS. We sat on carts and it felt like we were on a roller coasters, especially with the uneven ground. Visited some sewing "factory" and it's handicraft shop. Should've bought some pouch from there for you guys (dork and chye), but just didn't cross my mind what to get for yall till the last day at the last shop! Anw, the cloth they made were quite nice, with the colours overlapping and all. Then carted to some pagoda or shrine where they hung their dragon boat (which women were not allowed to walk past). Wth right I know..

Omg the post is kinda long alrdy, shall continue the rest later.Back to sleep! Then town. Shingz I feel like watching Good Fellas at Timbre.

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550. strong heart

2009-12-03T19:26:00.002+08:00

shingz, i am very very behind my revision.
this week has been wasted sleeping away and recovering from bali trip.
mad tired.

anws im gonnna go on hiatus till finals are over.
i realise i dont have enough discipline, so gonna ask mom to hide my comp.
so yeah, hope my itchy hands wont be tempted to touch it or sth.

kay off to "study".

She's a maniac, maniaccc on the dance floor.

2009-11-30T00:47:00.003+08:00

Last post before I go on hiatus.

I was folding paper cranes from 10+ I think, 3 hours past and I only have 6..haha but it's so friggin fun. I hope mine will be used to hang instead of giving to the children cause they're quite ugly upclose.tsk. Kay tired. Flight's at 4+ in the afternoon tmr! And I gotta drag 20kg full of donations to check in, shingz.

Alright,bye Singapore. Hellooooo Cambodia!:D
This is my chance, wish me luck.

And chye, I'm lazy to reply your tag..hahaha bye<3

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2009-11-26T18:06:00.002+08:00

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

i've never really celebrated thanksgiving except for when i was really young. anw it always has a special feeling to it, and gives u warm fuzzies when everyone is gathered tgt. so this yr grandma wanted this since a couple of relatives came back. i hope i have an awesome time.

revision has taken a long break alr, i need some drive. nerds possess me. i'll trade my soul for 3 weeks. haha

kay, ta <3

2009-11-23T09:59:00.006+08:00

Hellooo. Os Batuque Fantastica was shiok yesterday, especially Samba.

Oh and I met a nice bus uncle on 151. I appreciate his effort to greet people "Hi, good night" at every busstop. It's definitely not common for bus drivers to do that. So when he did, I gave him that weird look. hahaha. But I felt badddd. Everyone who came up the bus gave him that blank look or ignored him totally. So I decided! To thank him when I was alighting, and I did. Feels so nice but kinda difficult to do. I hope he doesn't stop doing that, cause someone's day might just be better with that little bit of courtesy. Yep.

Kay people, let's go to the YOUREKA party by Yahoo this sat! Get your tickets in your yahoo mail's advertisements.

Alright, friday's meeting with clique and I havent even called school to check if they still sell the sweater.Shingz. Bye.

godd I miss you :( but I don't even know you.
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Sunday Best

2009-11-22T01:19:00.005+08:00

I realized this, or rather, yesterday morning, that not only does it piss me off. But it also hurts. Didn't know it would.

And no, it's not the time of the month again.

That aside, Cambodia in 8 days! So are other shitload work due.

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let loose

2009-11-17T00:52:00.003+08:00

down w flu, ha.
my nose is running like a tap.
flu bug's everywhere luh.
in class, one person starts to sniff, by the end of lecture u get everyone sniffling. no kidding really! anyhows, a few of my favouritess ppl are coming back for xmas and possibly new year's.
i cant wait for 15th december to come! plus johnson invited us back to bali for boxing day. awesomeness (:

oh and good news? mom's gonna leave for macau to visit celia, zac and bev. bro's flying off next week and dad's on a business trip. so i'll be home alone. muaha! wait its actually bad new, i have to go get lunch and dinner every single day w my poor sniffly snorty nose. pfft.

kk need beauty sleep. ta<3

2009-11-15T20:21:00.003+08:00

Haven't been posting for quite some time.

Dialogue in the Dark was very very fun. Like 5/5 stars. For those of you who don't know what is it, it's a place where people can get to experience how isit like to be blind in total darkness. And you only get to hold a cane inside. Located in school, near blk 5. At the back of the co-op there. It was supposed to be maybe about half an hour, but our group spent 2 hours in there.hahaha. There was this part where we were supposed to be "crossing the road" which was the most memorable. It's like you can die anytime, no offence but seriously, the risks of people who are visually impaired are dead real. Then there was the boat and market part. How funnnn. If I can, I'd like to bring people there to try. But there's entrance fee though, 10 bucks for public I think.But it's worth every cent I promiseeee.

Therefore, I appreciate my eyesight.

I can't wait for Cambodia trip.

*Hi dork, what's wrong? *virtual hug back* haha

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543. ha

2009-11-15T19:49:00.002+08:00

feeling very whiny and restless and pms-ish lately.
finals are in less than a month and i havent really made any progress.
my "study" timetable's very messed up, gave up following it on the 3rd day.
gah! this is not good.
someone help me, mob if u see this *virtual hug*

and metal seems so appealing in this state of mind.

whatever pings your pong

2009-11-12T00:59:00.002+08:00

aloha world,
i am so screwed. ugh.

goodnight.